I am having a down day today. I'm not quite sure why other than the fact that I have worked the whole weekend and I don't feel like I a) got a break or b) got to spend any precious time with my husband or children. I am feeling bad for Mark too. He is having a rough day and worrying about things that in the grand scheme of things don't matter but still weigh heavily on his mind.
I read Mark's patriarchal blessing today and noticed that he is blessed with health and strength. I wonder if that blessing is for this life and I also wonder what the Lord's plan for him is. Shortly before my friend Linda passed away she shared her blessing with me. I know that our blessings are meant for this life as well as the next but in reading her blessing I honestly thought the things she was blessed with sounded like they were for this life. I was wrong. She passed away a week later. So, obviously I have no idea what to think.
I also reflect on my good friend Kristin who lost her husband this past summer. She heard about what is going on with Mark and offered to be of help any way that she can. If anybody understands the gamut of emotions our family is going through it would be her. But she isn't the only one to understand. Mark's mom had breast cancer, and my cousin's wife just finished treatments for breast cancer. Mark also has an aunt who had breast cancer and has survived. She called me this morning to let me know she has been doing research for Mark and even talked with the doctor's office of her sister who passed away a few years ago from cancer. What a thoughtful and caring thing to do! Then there is one of my bosses who's mother and father have both had cancer. Really, the list goes on and on. Last Thursday, as I sat up at the Huntsman Cancer Institute, I thought about how blessed we are to have such a premier research facility right here in our area. I also thought, however, about how sad it is that we have so much suffering from cancer that it warrants a huge research facility.
So, what does all of this mean? I really don't know. I guess I am just rambling on about things that have been on my mind.
I read Mark's patriarchal blessing today and noticed that he is blessed with health and strength. I wonder if that blessing is for this life and I also wonder what the Lord's plan for him is. Shortly before my friend Linda passed away she shared her blessing with me. I know that our blessings are meant for this life as well as the next but in reading her blessing I honestly thought the things she was blessed with sounded like they were for this life. I was wrong. She passed away a week later. So, obviously I have no idea what to think.
I also reflect on my good friend Kristin who lost her husband this past summer. She heard about what is going on with Mark and offered to be of help any way that she can. If anybody understands the gamut of emotions our family is going through it would be her. But she isn't the only one to understand. Mark's mom had breast cancer, and my cousin's wife just finished treatments for breast cancer. Mark also has an aunt who had breast cancer and has survived. She called me this morning to let me know she has been doing research for Mark and even talked with the doctor's office of her sister who passed away a few years ago from cancer. What a thoughtful and caring thing to do! Then there is one of my bosses who's mother and father have both had cancer. Really, the list goes on and on. Last Thursday, as I sat up at the Huntsman Cancer Institute, I thought about how blessed we are to have such a premier research facility right here in our area. I also thought, however, about how sad it is that we have so much suffering from cancer that it warrants a huge research facility.
So, what does all of this mean? I really don't know. I guess I am just rambling on about things that have been on my mind.
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I can't believe how inspirational you are and aside from that we are truly alike...down to our great taste in music (I love Michael Buble)!! You also are doing a tremendous job raising wonderful children so let go of that guilt. Our family will pray for you and Mark and the kids. You are a blessing to all who know you. Tracey