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*Sigh*

What is my problem today? I'm not sure but I have a sneaking suspicion it has something to do with my scheduled date to go to the LDS temple tonight with my honey. I always seem to have an ornery day the day I go to the temple. Satan works hard on me. So, I am trying to choose to be happy. A big challenge.

I actually decided earlier today that I hate children. Ha ha ha ha ha!!! That is a funny statement coming from someone who in all actuality loves children. I am just stressed with the whining and crying coming from Jillian. She is seriously turning my brain into mush. Then, Maizy didn't sleep this morning like she usually does so that didn't help anything either. I decided just now to let all the kids watch some mindless television. Hopefully that helps them and me.

School is going well. I am not into the meat of the class yet since it is just the beginning of the term so "going well" just means nothing to stress about yet. This week should kick up the pressure a little though. I was thinking about it and I am not sure that I have even blogged about going to school yet.

Last fall I hit an all time low slump with work and decided that if I have to work the rest of my life than I would rather do something that I love. Unfortunately, I don't have any skills in the things that I love so higher education was the next logical step. I have wanted to complete my bachelors degree since I was in high school. Life stepped in however and I put those goals on hold for a long period of my life. Now that Jillian is going into Kindergarten in the fall it leaves me with free time on my hands and I am truly excited for the opportunity to fill it with learning and growth.

So this month I started school again at UVU and hope to double major in photography and graphic design. This term I am taking Photography 1, Drawing 1, Computer Graphic Applications (Adobe Creative Suite instruction), and History of Art from the Renaissance on. I am going to be seriously challenged in some classes and will feel right at home in others. I am so excited though I can hardly stand it. I love learning!!!

Well, here I am after my date and I can honestly say I feel so much better. The temple brings so much peace to my life and I am so grateful for that peace. I honestly feel myself again and I think I can tackle tomorrow with renewed love and patience. Thank goodness for that!

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Momnerd said…
I really need to get to the temple, too. I feel busy but then I think of all you're doing and I don't know how you do it! I hope you know how much I appreciate all your help. And please, please, never hesitate to say no to babysitting if it's too much. Also, feel free to take a break if you need one, I'm glad to help. I'm also thinking that Jilly is just struggling with your attention being not just on her during the day anymore. You know? I love you!
1/25/2010 11:32 PM
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